August

I haven't blogged for a month, there hasn't been a whole lot to blog about, I've been helping out with camp, had a birthday, I was in a wedding, I've been packing for college (ok, that actually only started two days ago.. haha)! And then I've been thinking...oh boy...I graduate college in 8 months... I don't have a plan, I don't know what I'll do, or where I'll live or where I'd get a job, there are things I'd like to do before I get a job and those things are on a yellow light right now- no longer stopped but still on hold. And this is all kind of scary, I know perfectly well I'm not alone in this situation, there are millions of young adults in the same situation I am.

It seems like at the end of my school year I'll be stepping out of a boat before I know what's going to happen, and I'm trying hard not to look at the waves and to just trust that God is going to guide me and provide for me and ask me to get out of the boat. And that makes me less scared, I trust Him with my life, my career, and my dreams to see the rocky mountains. It's not your typical 5-year plan, but that's ok with me! :)

When God is silent

The last month has been kind of strange for me.

See the past month as I've been thinking about and going through various things  and praying about them God has been silent.

And (ok this might sound crazy) this hasn't been a bad thing. God has not seemed distant or aloof, just silent.
It's actually been almost a blessing because it's been teaching me to first of all, to wait on Him and secondly to place my hope in Him that He will come through even though it doesn't seem like it. Even though at times my hope seemed so fragile, I realized that my hope doesn't depend on the circumstances or what I'm feeling but on Him alone... and He's saying 'hold on'!  :) 

Ten lepers on a journey

On the way to Jerusalem he was passing along between Samaria and Galilee.  And as he entered a village, he was met by ten lepers, who stood at a distance and lifted up their voices, saying, “Jesus, Master, have mercy on us.” When he saw them he said to them, “Go and show yourselves to the priests.” And as they went they were cleansed.

~Luke 17:11-14~

I was reading these verses and found them rather interesting...As this little scene unfolds only one of the ten lepers comes back and praises God that He was healed, while  I think that the reaction is the main part of this story, I found it interesting that after the lepers addressed Jesus He responded by saying "Go show yourselves to the priests" He did not tell them they were going to be healed (at least it's not recorded that He did), and yet they headed off trusting Him and obeying what He had said and they were healed on the way-"as they went" ---sometime during the journey to the priests.

Isn't that so much like our own lives? As we journey on and obey Jesus, sometimes we are healed during the process, not always before, not always after. It could be physical healing but it could also be emotional healing, the healing any brokenness we have or soul cleansing. And it's not always obvious along the journey but eventually we realize that it has occurred. Because He will be faithful to us trusting Him. And if that happens in my own life I hope that I can be the one to "turn back and praise God with a loud voice"! :) 

 

My burden is light

"29 Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30 For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”

For a while I've been thinking about Matthew 11:29-30 and what is meant by Jesus's burden to find a deeper meaning behind these verses. So I pulled out my dictionary & thesaurus and found that yoke can also mean: to be joined together or subjection / oppression / servitude.
This makes verse 29 make a lot more sense replacing the words:

 'Take my subjection/servitude upon you and learn from me for I am gentle and humble in heart...'

(I had never thought that the "learn from me" part had made much sense and seemed a little out of place in the middle of the verse, now it makes sense!)
So Jesus is telling us to learn from Him how to be a servant and to take it upon ourselves, but that still doesn't answer, what is His burden?

I had gathered from what the rest of this verse is saying is that His burden or responsibility / load is to humbly serve others. But that's not easy or light at all! In fact, it's very difficult!

So then I thought...well Jesus sees the grand scheme of things because...well, He's God, so what if He meant that those who truly take it [servitude] on consider it light and doesn't encumber them simply because they have joined with Jesus in taking His yoke, become humble in heart and know humbly serving others like Jesus did is totally worth it in the light of eternity.  :)

Never forget

As humans we all have faulty memories, but God calls us to remember. 
Remember what exactly? 

Well, lots of things...

~Let all that I am praise the LORD; may I never forget the good things he does for me.~

Psalm 103:2

~Be careful that you do not forget the LORD, who brought you out of Egypt, out of the land of slavery.~

Deuteronomy 6:12

~Be careful that you do not forget the LORD your God, failing to observe his commands, his laws and his decrees that I am giving you this day. ~

Deuteronomy 8:11

Throughout the Old Testament God is constantly reminding Israel and His people to not forget who brought them out of Egypt and all the things He had done for them. He wants us to always be thankful, to remember His commandments and the things He has done for us. Not for His benefit but for ours, it's difficult to be caught in self-pity, sadness or hopelessness if we are always thankful and remembering His commandments, our blessings and the great things He has done! 

Remember the wonders he has done, his miracles, and the judgments he pronounced

1 Chronicles 16:12 

Discouraged?

Have you ever had those times when you're not sure what's next and nothing seems to be happening? It can be pretty discouraging,  you start counting your failures and shortcomings and when you do count your blessings it's seems pretty short lived. 

I've been going through something like that lately and it can be tough. But the last couple of nights I've just had to take it to God, and pray about it. What should I do with my time right now? ...when nothing seems to be going on...nothing is making sense...When your plans aren't happening...when you don't know what to do day to day? 

And God said (to me anyway): Serve others where you can, whether it's cleaning the house everyday for your parents, encouraging others, and just being available to others. 

God doesn't approve of self-pity parties anyway, but instead wants us to be joyful,  thankful for everything and pray without ceasing. :) 

1 Thessalonians 5:16- 18

Follow your heart?

"Well what are you going to do?"

"I don't know...I could do this, but then there's this other option too..."

"Don't worry, just follow your heart, do what feels right!" 

This sounds all too familiar, especially if you add some inspirational type of music in the background and said person suddenly gets everything they want (even the guy) and it's happily ever after. This portrayed in tv shows, movies, this kind of conversation happens in real life especially among girls. 

And the popular advice to 'Follow your dreams' and 'Do what feels right' are overwhelming. 

It certainly sounds nice but the problem is that it's not what God says. 

So what does God say on this subject:

'He who trusts in his own heart is a fool, But he who walks wisely will be delivered.'

Proverbs 28:26

'The heart is deceitful above all things and beyond cure. Who can understand it?'

Jeremiah 17:9

'For out of the heart come evil thoughts, murder, adultery, sexual immorality, theft, false witness, slander.' 

Matthew 15:19

Those are just a few examples that show up in the bible about what our hearts are like. As humankind is born into a world of sin so are our hearts. Often following our hearts can be selfish, we want the best for ourselves and we strive for it, some will do anything we can to chase after what we want, which can often lead us to slander, trample over, and be mean to others. 

I know if I'm not actively seeking God and keeping His words and commandments in my heart it tends to get...not very nice in there... I know I can become very judgmental, bitter, easily annoyed, prideful and  selfish, wanting to do things for the wrong reason rather than just being willing to help someone else.
 We can't follow Jesus if we're too busy following our own hearts.

I'm not saying having dreams and goals is a bad thing, in fact they can be very good, and God can give us a certain desire to want to do something in particular and replace or change that at anytime (I used to want to be a fashion model)  but these dreams and desires need to be prayed about. I know there are lots of things that I would like to do but God is saying 'wait, I'm planning something else that's ever better'.  We want what's best for us, so does God, in fact He wants the very best for us because we're His children and He wants to bless us more than we could have ever imagined. He just really loves us, 

that's no dream, that's reality. 

The Passover Lamb

I'm shared this with a few friends already but I just love how God planned out His story before the beginning of time and is in control of everything! 

So Jesus came into Jerusalem on the Palm Sunday four days before the Passover and was in the temple and being questioned by the religious leaders and they couldn't find fault with him... Well in Exodus 12, when Moses was talking about the Passover lamb and the laws surrounding that, the lamb had to be brought into the house 4 days before Passover and inspected by the priests or leaders to make sure it was without fault before it was sacrificed and fully cooked. 

Also the lamb had to have one stake going through it vertically and one horizontally otherwise it wouldn't be  be fully cooked through like it was supposed to be as stated in the laws about the Passover lamb,  these two sticks the lamb would die on makes the shape of a cross strangely enough. 



How amazing is that? 
God is good!
Happy Easter! :) 

Toeing the line

"Hmm... how close can I come to doing this without actually sinning?"

Have you ever had that mindset. I have, and I know it's a very slippery slope that leads to full out rebellion against God.

It's not a good mindset, and it's not something I've struggled with recently but I see a lot of people who do, especially within youth groups but this issue is definitely not limited to youth, it can happen with anyone, so I have a word of advice...


Rebel.  Full out... against the WORLD. 

Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind... [Romans 12:2]

It is my personal desire to be so far from toeing that line that others wonder... what is she all about? 

To be calm in the midst of exams rather than stressed, to be a joyful helper, to serve, to only speak well of others, to have confidence in God alone. 

And I want to encourage others to do the same. 

 Think about what areas of life you may fall short in or have this mindset, read what God says about the subject or ask someone you trust about it, and then run from that line. 

Thus said the Lord

I just wanted to briefly share something that was on my mind a few months ago that I briefly touched on in my blog post from February ::  (The Shortest Month).

When I talked about what it means to deny yourself and what makes me, me?
 This was probably something that I should have included in my brief list but...relationships. They play  huge part in it and make us who we are. We have family and friendships that change us (and these changes are not always in a  good way, been there done that), and there's also the whole issue of romantic relationships.
See I've decided I'm not dating anybody who does not love Jesus with all their heart. So I'm waiting for that person.  While I was thinking about all this it really struck me that denying myself included this... God may keep me single for the rest of my life,  I'm much too stubborn to settle for someone, so the possibility of being 'alone' the rest of my life is quite real at this point. And I had a really intense prayer time about it, lots of crying, and coming to terms with that and then embarrassment that...it seemed harder for me to give up   marriage for Jesus than it was to give up my life for Jesus. And that made me cry some more. He asks for our lives, that includes my relationships.
I know I'm probably not alone in this as a young woman, I'm sure many struggle or have struggled with it, and I'm sure I will from time to time but that's ok, I've got my Prince. ;P


On a more recent note, It feels like a lot has happened since I wrote a post last week,

 I've been getting up and reading a chapter or two ...or five of my bible in the morning, right now I'm reading through 1 Corinthians, but I've also been reading  in Genesis, Zachariah, and John.


I've also found that I've really been hearing God speak to me more lately about things He wants me to do and I feel really blessed that He trusts me to help Him do those things! :)  It's really neat and I'm excited to see what He's going to do with it!

AND  I've just been really joyful this past week, you know why? Because we're prisoners of HOPE! :)

As for you, because of the blood of my covenant with you, I will free your prisoners from the waterless pit.  Return to your fortress,  prisoners of hope; even now I announce that I will restore twice as much to you. 

                                  ~~Zechariah 9:11-12~~

Multi-tasking

You know when you read a good book and you can tell that all the little things are going to come together for a really great ending where it all makes sense?

Well the last month or so God has been speaking and opened my eyes about a few seemingly random little lessons or things in my life and these things are all adding together to bring Him glory, and I'm fairly certain most of it (whatever 'it' is) hasn't happened yet, but that's the neat part!

I know that's pretty vague so I'll fill you in a little bit. So I've been going through a real time of growth with God and during one of my prayer times a little while ago I actually asked God if He would test my faith. Crazy right? 

God's also been speaking to me about being more bold about standing up for Him and being more bold about my faith (kind of funny since that was the other word I kept praying about for my 'word of the year')
And so the next couple weeks after that there were small opportunities in conversations with friends or how I could have acted that would show what He's like. And some of those times went well and some didn't...because I didn't always realize right at that moment that it was a moment to stand up and be a little bolder. And I was reflecting on a few of those things and sort of feeling like a failure and God reminded me of this little verse 

"His master replied, ‘Well done, good and faithful servant! You have been faithful with a few things; I will put you in charge of many things. Come and share your master’s happiness!’"

~Matthew 25:23~

So God has sort of been doing two things at once in my life and they're dependent on each other!
 How cool is that?! :)

The Fruit of the Spirit

Just a quick thought on this verse...

But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control

~Galatians 5:22-23~ 

The fruits of the spirit are the things listed above, what it looks like when God is obviously guiding someone's life, these are the attitudes, actions and the way to treat others. I could break each one down, into categories and what each one really means, what it really looks like, and I'm sure there's whole books on it, But I started thinking, if we know what the fruits of the Spirit are, then we also know what they aren't... they are the opposite

Which is: 

Hate, depression, anger, impatience, unkindness, wickedness, unfaithfulness, aggressiveness and being unrestrained


We can choose to seek God and the things of His spirit or we can have it choked out by other things and the opposites crop up in our daily life. So... in closing...

 Those who belong to Christ  have crucified the flesh with its passions and desires.  Since we live by the Spirit, let us also walk in the Spirit.

~Galatians: 5:24-25~

:) 

The shortest month

February is the shortest month, and it's felt like it. It's whizzed by and I feel like I've been far too silent on my blog despite how much I've been learning and thinking about. It's all really hard to put into words but I've just really felt God's peace with me, despite having six assignments due in one week- I'm glad that I've made Him first, I still went to church and volunteered... even though I had to get a bunch of work done, I stopped my work when I -honestly wasn't getting much done and needed to refocus and be refreshed by reading through Matthew or singing along to a couple worship songs or stopping to pray for five or ten minutes, which I know isn't long but just because I want to! And those are always really lovely times AND I realized that time spent praying or being led to pray about something - (when you're told to) is also a huge part of obedience and really fruitful! :) 

The last couple weeks especially I've been thinking about a verse in Luke quite a bit 

~Luke 9:23: ~

Then he said to them all: “Whoever wants to be my disciple must deny themselves and take up their cross daily and follow me."

Two parts of this REALLY stood out to me...first of all, the word MUST. We must deny ourselves... it's a command, a duty and it means commitment. At least that's what the Thesaurus tells me when looking for synonyms for 'must'. 

The second part of that that stood out to me was 'themselves'. It makes perfect sense but I got thinking... what makes me who I am? 

That's a tough question to answer really, and that's probably why I've had to take the last couple weeks to even begin to think about it. So I've come up with a short and basic list (I do hope to make it more in depth)

What makes us who we are?

Interests/hobbies
Habits (good and bad)
Thoughts -> 
Words -> 
Actions (these three generally link up)
Talents
Desires/goals
Values
What we love and value in life


This is the basic list, and to truly deny yourself- who you are as a person sounds.. impossible and almost cruel, with a world telling you to 'be who you want to be and don't let anyone or anything get in your way'

But God tells us to do the opposite (surprise, surprise) so as someone who loves and follows Jesus I have to lay down these things and let them be scrutinized by God, so that I learn what needs to change and what can be used better for His glory. 

That's a lifelong process folks, and it's a must! 

Parable of the sower

 “A farmer went out to sow his seed. 

 As he was scattering the seed, some fell along the path, and the birds came and ate it up. 

Some fell on rocky places, where it did not have much soil. It sprang up quickly, because the soil was shallow. 

 But when the sun came up, the plants were scorched, and they withered because they had no root. 

 Other seed fell among thorns, which grew up and choked the plants. 

 Still other seed fell on good soil, where it produced a crop—a hundred, sixty or thirty times what was sown" 

~Matthew 13: 3-8~

I was reading the parable of the sower today and I got thinking about the thorny soil. It never said the soil there was bad, just that there were thorns, so it's still good soil - it's just other things got in the way, Luke's account says those other things that choked it out are worries, riches and pleasure. 

So what if it wasn't choked out - what do seeds  need to grow?

 We've  got the soil part covered, but what about water? Seeds need water!
Jesus mentions that drinking the water He gives  (Living Water) will be ''a spring welling up to eternal life'' 

So the soil where the thorns are, are the people who are more focused on other things rather than Jesus.
And the seed in the good soil producing fruit is the people who are focused and spending time with Jesus.  Have you ever seen any fruit tree in a drought, it doesn't make very yummy fruit without that water eh? 

Coincidentally, plants with thorns typically grow in places without a lot of water. 

There's my thought of the day. 

 

This month

I can hardly believe this month is almost over! I can't believe I've been so silent on my blog because God has really been doing a lot in my life lately!

In my last post I mentioned praying for a word for 2014, and I have it now! God gave me the word 'Obedience' and after quite a bit of struggling with not obeying something God was asking of me for a few months I finally went ahead and did it.

God had been asking me to give up a couple various internet sites that I spent a lot of time on - while there were neat and interesting things on there like art, cool stories and funny jokes, there was also a lot of violent graphic 'art', pictures, pop culture influence, awful sexual jokes and references and posts mocking Jesus. So very early this month I knew I had to quit cold turkey -and I realized this after a quote I read in 'Set Apart Girl Magazine' it said :

 We cannot delay our obedience to Christ until it fits into our schedule or when it is convenient and easy for us 

Which, was exactly what I had been doing...So from that point on I needed a plan of action, I complied a *very*  short list  of websites to go on instead of these other sites because I knew I would be tempted to go on them when I was online. The first three or four days were pretty tough as it was habit to go on these sites for my daily entertainment. But over these few short days my list grew... and kept growing with websites, testimony sites, missionaries and ministries to check out and look at instead of what I was looking at, so my list went from 5 sites (which don't update very often) to a whole page long! And thus far I haven't gone back on those sites in three weeks! Woo hoo! :)


It was also really neat how a couple days after all this internet site giving up I was at a friend's bible study and we were going over John 5.
 We were going over verse 6 where the paralyzed and blind were hanging out by the pool, and Jesus asked a paralyzed man  " Do you want to get well?" 

It seems like a pretty dumb question, the obvious answer is Yes, of course! But I found thinking of my own situation... had I really wanted to give up something- almost an idol in my life you could call it- to be made well?
Answer:  Not really, I was completely helpless like this paralyzed man, and still Jesus told him to 'Get up and walk' and the man  could do it, because Jesus told him to do it,  and he obeyed Him even though he probably thought it crazy to just stand up and walk after being paralyzed for 38 years. How amazing is that!  So if he did something Jesus asked him to - that seemed so impossible how can I not do something He asked of me that was so easy?! So that's what I've learned so far this month!

 Besides that, God has answered a couple prayers that I didn't expect Him to answer so soon or so...abundantly! So that's been really amazing to see! It's been a huge encouragement to just keep pressing on! :) 

Word

So last year I got this idea from another blogger, that I would have a word for 2013 that would be what I tried to focus on in my life for the year, and so I prayed for a word that seemed appropriate and 'Faithful' kept coming up. So my word was faithful, I wanted to be more faithful to God in more aspects of my life.


Looking back through my journal over the course of the past year I realized (with complete horror) that there was a lot of things that I was not faithful about, lots of compromises and distractions and (here comes the horror part) many of them were completely willful. Yes, I knew at the time (and even more-so now) that maybe some of these things I should have been determinedly running away from when tempted by them  but I didn't. So as I read over my journal I felt over whelming shame of all these things in my life that weren't allowing me to be faithful to God, and I just felt like I had failed - and dismally at that. So I failed, but I also grew from it.
I realized that although I might not have been faithful, God had been faithful to me! Every time I went against Him He brought me through lots of trials, traps and temptations even though I didn't deserve  it. 

So it's been really amazing to look back on that! I've been praying about a word for this year and currently have two that seem to be popping up so we'll see what the final outcome is and what God does this year! :) 

• I'd encourage others to try this out and let me know what word God gives you and what happens through the year! 

Whether it is favourable

Then they said to Jeremiah, “May the Lord be a true and faithful witness against us if we do not act in accordance with everything the Lord your God sends you to tell us.  

Whether it is favorable or unfavorable, we will obey the Lord our God, to whom we are sending you, so that it will go well with us, for we will obey the Lord our God.” 

~~ Jeremiah 42:5-6  ~~

What a great attitude to have! To do what God says whether we find it favourable or unfavourable. Except in this case, the army officers inquiring as to what they should do, truly had no intention of listening to what God said. They asked, and knew what God wanted to do and still chose their own way, going to Eygpt rather than remaining where God had told them to.

My reaction to things like this that I read in the Old Testament is usually something like 'you dummies, God just told you not to do that!' But every time I remind myself that I do that same thing. I know what God says and still choose not to listen, I still choose to do what I want or what I think might be best. 

And that's an attitude I want to avoid.