Thus said the Lord

I just wanted to briefly share something that was on my mind a few months ago that I briefly touched on in my blog post from February ::  (The Shortest Month).

When I talked about what it means to deny yourself and what makes me, me?
 This was probably something that I should have included in my brief list but...relationships. They play  huge part in it and make us who we are. We have family and friendships that change us (and these changes are not always in a  good way, been there done that), and there's also the whole issue of romantic relationships.
See I've decided I'm not dating anybody who does not love Jesus with all their heart. So I'm waiting for that person.  While I was thinking about all this it really struck me that denying myself included this... God may keep me single for the rest of my life,  I'm much too stubborn to settle for someone, so the possibility of being 'alone' the rest of my life is quite real at this point. And I had a really intense prayer time about it, lots of crying, and coming to terms with that and then embarrassment that...it seemed harder for me to give up   marriage for Jesus than it was to give up my life for Jesus. And that made me cry some more. He asks for our lives, that includes my relationships.
I know I'm probably not alone in this as a young woman, I'm sure many struggle or have struggled with it, and I'm sure I will from time to time but that's ok, I've got my Prince. ;P


On a more recent note, It feels like a lot has happened since I wrote a post last week,

 I've been getting up and reading a chapter or two ...or five of my bible in the morning, right now I'm reading through 1 Corinthians, but I've also been reading  in Genesis, Zachariah, and John.


I've also found that I've really been hearing God speak to me more lately about things He wants me to do and I feel really blessed that He trusts me to help Him do those things! :)  It's really neat and I'm excited to see what He's going to do with it!

AND  I've just been really joyful this past week, you know why? Because we're prisoners of HOPE! :)

As for you, because of the blood of my covenant with you, I will free your prisoners from the waterless pit.  Return to your fortress,  prisoners of hope; even now I announce that I will restore twice as much to you. 

                                  ~~Zechariah 9:11-12~~

Multi-tasking

You know when you read a good book and you can tell that all the little things are going to come together for a really great ending where it all makes sense?

Well the last month or so God has been speaking and opened my eyes about a few seemingly random little lessons or things in my life and these things are all adding together to bring Him glory, and I'm fairly certain most of it (whatever 'it' is) hasn't happened yet, but that's the neat part!

I know that's pretty vague so I'll fill you in a little bit. So I've been going through a real time of growth with God and during one of my prayer times a little while ago I actually asked God if He would test my faith. Crazy right? 

God's also been speaking to me about being more bold about standing up for Him and being more bold about my faith (kind of funny since that was the other word I kept praying about for my 'word of the year')
And so the next couple weeks after that there were small opportunities in conversations with friends or how I could have acted that would show what He's like. And some of those times went well and some didn't...because I didn't always realize right at that moment that it was a moment to stand up and be a little bolder. And I was reflecting on a few of those things and sort of feeling like a failure and God reminded me of this little verse 

"His master replied, ‘Well done, good and faithful servant! You have been faithful with a few things; I will put you in charge of many things. Come and share your master’s happiness!’"

~Matthew 25:23~

So God has sort of been doing two things at once in my life and they're dependent on each other!
 How cool is that?! :)